Halfway Through NaNoWriMo! 

If there was an award for the number of things that could go wrong in a month and prevent someone from writing, that award would go to me. Yay, I won something! 

Seriously, though: of the seven days my daughter was to be in preschool this month (so far), she has been to one. One. That one day I finally had to work, because she was gone, was spent doing errands instead… as when does a single disabled mother get another chance? Never! 

I was supposed to have time yesterday and today, but those plans fell through; she was supposed to have preschool today, but the centre is closed due to flooding. Which I only found out once I already drove there. 

Cue frustration. 

She is supposed to have school three days still this week; unsure if that will happen. 

So. Here is where my issue lies: giving myself a self-imposed deadline (follow NaNo, write 1,667 words a day, complete) and then not following through with it just causes undue stress. I knew this before, but I realize it much more now: time is a precious commodity. 

The only way I am writing this now, with my 3.5 year old daughter in tow, is because I’m sitting on my kitchen floor in a self-imposed exile. The range fan is on to drown out Paw Patrol. Any cats that enter my workspace are swiftly kicked out. 

The amount of words that I’ve added to my novel since November 10 (the last blog post, posted today, lol) is 0. Zero! 

NaNoWriMo expected word count, November 15: 25,005 

Erica’s word count: 13,602 

The likelihood of me completing NaNo, at this rate, is slim. As mentioned in my last post, I’m just going to try my best, write as much as I can, and if I continue writing my novel after NaNo, so what? At least I’ll get it written – and that’s the point. 

I also want to make this clear, if you’re not a parent (especially a single parent): it’s impossible to ignore your child. I try but feel guilty. There’s only so much time they will be 3, 4, 5, whatever age, and if that time is spent pushing them away, especially when they want you, the guilt never ends. If my daughter is home from school, work simply does not get done. It’s impossible.

Published by Erica Black

Erica was born with a rare disease called an arteriovenous malformation in her right leg. She is now an advocate for those with disabilities. She left the corporate world in 2016 to pursue a career as a high school English teacher and began to blog along the way. She has a BA in English Lit and minor in Creative Writing. Her writing has been featured in The Martlet, The Globe and Mail, Heroica, and more. She enjoys cats, reading, and her daughter.

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